where He leads, i'll follow.
So this is Nicholas. 54 years of age. Mexican. Super friendly. Lives in his car due to not having enough work, but cleans windows of stores and stuff when he gets the opportunity. Knows a crapload about the Bible and is just awesome in general. He insisted on buying Cody and I a soda after we had been talking to him for just 20ish minutes. Pretty sure we talked a total of about two hours. He grilled me pretty good about how i “paint” my hair, wear lines around my eyes, paint my nails, and have a tattoo. That’s not how God made me, he said. Beforehand, I had definitely prayed for God to let me hear what i needed to hear that evening…..hmm… Pray for Nic to stay strong and to not ever lose hope or be negatively influenced by worldly crap. Pray that he is able to get more work so he can pay rent and get off the streets. The dude is a warrior for Christ and his potential blows me away. Peace to you all tonight. -Julia 

So this is Nicholas. 54 years of age. Mexican. Super friendly. Lives in his car due to not having enough work, but cleans windows of stores and stuff when he gets the opportunity. Knows a crapload about the Bible and is just awesome in general. He insisted on buying Cody and I a soda after we had been talking to him for just 20ish minutes. Pretty sure we talked a total of about two hours. He grilled me pretty good about how i “paint” my hair, wear lines around my eyes, paint my nails, and have a tattoo. That’s not how God made me, he said. Beforehand, I had definitely prayed for God to let me hear what i needed to hear that evening…..hmm… 
Pray for Nic to stay strong and to not ever lose hope or be negatively influenced by worldly crap. Pray that he is able to get more work so he can pay rent and get off the streets. The dude is a warrior for Christ and his potential blows me away. 
Peace to you all tonight.

-Julia 


Home from Bulgaria

I have a lot to say, but for now, my exhaustion is a tsunami while my mind is a flimsy tree. I’m not meant to continue coming back to America like this…

For now, -julia

Bulgaria (week 2)

Friday - July 1

Welcome to the planet

Welcome to existence

Everyone’s here

Everyone’s here

Everybody’s watching you now

Everybody waits for you now

What happens next

What happens next

I dare you to move

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout

Welcome to resistance

The tension is here

Tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be

Between how it is and how it should be

Maybe redemption has stories to tell

Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell

Where can you run to escape from yourself?

Where you gonna go?

Where you gonna go?

Salvation is here

I dare you to move

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened

Today never happened

Today never happened before

[Switchfoot - Dare You To Move]

If you haven’t watched the movie To Save A Life, do it. We watched it here in Bulgaria with a few of our new friends this evening. Here are a few things I really loved about said movie: (1) It demonstrated that one doesn’t have to immediately beat someone’s face with the bible or push their head under water in order for God to touch them. Their desire to change will just follow. (2) The characters realize that you don’t have to have all of your crap together in order to follow Jesus. He is close to the brokenhearted. (3) A life can be changed or even saved when shown kindness fueled by love. (4) It brings awareness to the fact that there are people surrounding you who feel worthless and alone. And it’s so easy to change that. (5) Traditions are okay, until they interfere with God’s movement.

Anyways, before I cried my eyes out….. Earlier today, our group split into two, and either went to Vania and Christo’s house or snaked through the National History Museum, then switched. Like last year, Christo and Vania opened their home and prepared a traditional Bulgarian meal for us. Yes, it was fantastic, and yes, I took pictures. They also sang a song in Bulgarian and then one in Greek, the latter being about how God reveals Himself through little things and about His love. It was beautiful. They talked to us about how their church is one of the only two church of Christ congregations in Sofia and how it is hard to evangelize amidst the perception that any Christian movement that isn’t Bulgarian Orthodox is a heresy. Also, they don’t have a reliable building to meet in. Currently, they congregate in the conference room of the hotel we are staying at; which is actually a step up from the basement of a bookstore they met in a year ago. They are asking for prayers, so if you get the chance……

-Julia

Saturday - July 2

Rila Monastery. Built in 11 B.C. Located in Bulgarian mountains. Why yes, we did visit such a place today. I was hoping that I could get one of the monks to bless Pancho (my current traveling mouse), but I never got up the nerve. Don’t worry though, I made up for it by obtaining a mini portrait of Jesus at the huge gift shop located smack in the middle of said monastery. I’ll be blessed forever now. :-)

We then trekked about 3.1 miles at an ever-so-noticeable incline to reach the home of the dude who built the Rila Monastery, Aka a small cave further into the mountain. Apparently, if you crawl through the cave, your sins will be forgiven. Inside was yet more portraits of holy people, along with the typical, wand-like candles which cast a dim light in the coldness. It was pretty sweet.. Made me think of when my dad and I have gone hiking during fall break. One of the interns, Logan, even managed to get jumped on by a small snake. The view was extraordinary, naturally. I may or may not corporate in the returning to America process. I guess i will be happy to be able to play my acoustic again; and I definitely wont miss the overall feeling of sadness amongst the Bulgarian people. But the fields are totally ripe for harvest here. We get back at it tomorrow. Please continue the awesome prayers. I love you guys.

-Julia

PS- I, along with six others, can say that I’ve been stuck in an elevator in Bulgaria before.

PSS- hi mom and dad. Thanks for taking care of Gladis. :)

Thursday - June 30

This photo pretty much sums it up. We can definitely see Jesus in the Bulgarian sky. #love

-Julia

Thursday - June 30

This photo pretty much sums it up. We can definitely see Jesus in the Bulgarian sky. #love

-Julia

Bulgaria

Friday - June 24

Arrived at the Sofia Nat’l airport around 11:40am with everyone successfully receiving their luggage. Woohoo! (scratch that, we had two that failed to receive their suitcases..but they have them now so no worries.) It didn’t hit me until I saw Christo and Vania (the preacher of a church of Christ here and his wife) waving to greet our crew as we were walking out of the airport…the memories of last year’s trip came back immediately and everything around me now feels like home. Familiar faces and places. Sadly, we aren’t staying at the infamous Easy Hotel again. Our hotel this year is the meeting place of worship for Christo’s church, conveniently. It’s nice. Dinner tonight included the best salad ever, that is, shopska (spell check) salad which includes cucumbers, tomatoes, and some kind of white cheese (goat, perhaps?). We also had cheese fries and several types of meat. And now, exhausted and full, we are all just going to chill at the hotel this evening and sleep after the short devo. Everyone is stoked. Everything is going wonderfully. The next two weeks shall be epic. Pray for us, loves.

Saturday - June 25

And today was a day just like any other. Or, rather, quite the opposite. The hotel provided us with an epic breakfast this morning consisting of bread, eggs, meat, cheese, fruits, cereal, etc; the fruit here is the best ever, seriously. Martin, our translator, gave us a brief tour of the surrounding area. I remembered many of the locations and such from last year, especially the ancient cathedrals and other church buildings. We happened to walk in during Mass and during the baptism of a baby. (No worries, I have video clips of both events.) I really enjoyed the different portraits of Jesus and the apostles we’ve seen…they depict Him pretty much the same as Americans do, but with more random hand gestures and fancy headwear. We weren’t allowed to take photos inside said buildings, unfortunately. We noticed that there were about 10 people (9 of which were women) present at Mass. Rick informed us that Sofia has a population of approximately 1.5 million people.

After our mini tour, it became destination: park. for the remainder of the day until dinner time. Since about half of us have experienced this before, there was more confidence in our group to reach out to the local teenagers who watch us with utmost curiosity. God even cut us some slack today and many of them approached the crazy, random crowd of about 15 American young people first. We basically just had to be there and opportunities came in many different faces, stories, and conversations. It’s been estimated that we got to talk to and hang out with about 25 new Bulgarian friends this afternoon. The first-timers on this trip also got to meet Denny, our amazing Bulgaria friend whom we met last year. It was discussed in our devo tonight about how it’s no accident that we’ve come across these certain people. God wants them to either experience or hear something we have to say. Please pray for God to be the breath in our lungs; there’s no doubt that we need a Voice louder than ours. Peace and much love to each of you.

-Julia

PS- did I mention that we stumbled across some Bulgarian folk dancing upon arrival at the park? :) pictures soon to come.

Sunday - June 26

So many different experiences today. Every single person we’ve met, every conversation that’s taken place…almost every step we’ve taken has resulted in us recognizing it as a “God thing”. The Dude is moving in quick and obvious ways and it’s honestly kind of overwhelming me. I’ve been praying like crazy for God to take over every move I make and use every ounce of me to demonstrate His love…and all the sudden, He’s sweeping me away in ways that are so much bigger than I could have ever planed or thought of. Please pray for God to be our eyes. For real.

On a more informational note, We’ve learned that Christianity is definitely not common here. Many of the people we’ve met in the park view “church” as the shiny cathedrals and the chants that the priests mumble while wearing their delicate white/gold robes and waving around wooden crosses. A group of 3 people in their twenties told us that there is a sadness amongst the Bulgarian people. Like there’s something missing. Many are cynical/downcast about all the communism that has happened and the fact that cops can be waved off by slipping them some money. They said that they can see something different in our group’s eyes. They feel kindness and they feel comfortable talking and coming with us to our hotel for worship. Worship of which they’ve never experienced before…they couldn’t understand how there could be any singing besides what a priest does at Mass. People here don’t talk to strangers or even really acknowledge them when they walk by or whatever.

A woman at church tonight told me that she hopes I can get her grandson to have an interest in church again. I told her we’re working on it. Always with hope,

-Julia

Monday - June 27

Fairly intense day at the park. In case you haven’t creeped on my Bulgaria photos from last year, what we do at the park is this: play games like badminton, kill ball, catch with football, volleyball, old lady ball, and sometimes other random games. The goal is to make connections with, well, mainly teens, but we will have occasional adults who want to teach us the correct way to hit a volleyball and such *cough* Christian *cough*. Sure, words are hard to understand when they aren’t being spoken to you in your native language, but there’s no denying the connection made between smiles, laughs, and the joy that comes from hilarious moments that occur when trying to whack a ball with feathers (and keep it under control) in random gusts of wind. Luckily, many of the people who agree, and many times ask, to play with us know some English and can at least have some small talk conversations with us. Also, teens typically mill around in groups of 3-5 (on average) and there’s usually one or two who is quite fluent with English. This year, we had little flyers made with the address to our hotel, and our schedule of evening events that are designed to let us hang out with our new Bulgarian friends and also include them in our singing/praying at the end (if they want to, of course). We give them these flyers which have English on one side and Bulgarian on the other. Three of our new friends, Stella, Bobbie, & Bobbie’s friend with a complicated name, came to our game night this evening. Though they had a glorious time laughing at Becca and I’s lack of UNO skills, they didn’t feel comfortable being included in our circle when we began singing. They seemed to enjoy listening at least, and Becca wrote in one of her posts from tonight that “I asked him [Bobbie] if he would come back tomorrow and without hesitating he said “Yes!”

I’ve been thinking about the parable of the mustard seed like crazy today. Jesus once said “How shall we picture the kingdom of God, or by what parable shall we present it? It is like a mustard seed, which, when sown upon the soil, though smaller than all the seeds that are upon the soil, yet when it is sown, it grows up and becomes larger than all the garden plants and forms large branches; so that the birds of the air can nest under its shade.” I like the fact that, by definition, when a mustard seed grows, it doesn’t just make one small blossom, but completely covers the entirety of its surroundings.

Love really is the movement.

-Julia

Tuesday - June 28

I’m pretty sure the consistent cloudy + rainy weather affected my overall spirit today. I just haven’t been feeling it and I’m glad today is over. After reviewing it all in my mind, I can now see that Satan has been tearing at my mind in forms like disappointment, jealousy, incompetence, low tolerance, feeling like whatever I say is useless, and rest that follows such feelings. But honestly, today was pretty incredible when viewed through eyes that aren’t weak like mine. Our translator, Martin, told us that it was a miracle that those three bulgarians showed up yesterday evening. Bulgaria is a country in which no one trusts anyone. Especially a sketchy group of American teens, ha. Martin said that we shouldnt get discouraged; once they trust us, they will trust what we have to say. Which is the truth about many humans, eh? Granted, some will just follow blindly…….. 10 of our new Bulgarian friends (including the same 3 from yesterday) showed up tonight. Crazy. Please pray for our group to have patience and to rejoice at the small/huge things. God does enter the world through smallness after all. Shoot, the son of GOD was born in the ghetto for pete’s (or, rather, the whole world’s sake). He uses what a young boy has to totally quench the hunger of five thousand. A country was set free because God worked through a dude whose mother sent him down a river in a basket when he was a baby.

Anyways. I’ll cease my rant. But at least I know that blogging is officially a good method of mental therapy.

Praying for all of you back home. Good night.

-Julia

Wednesday - June 29

I forgot to mention that I kicked a pigeon yesterday.. Which almost qualifies as much of a success as me managing to play a random Bulgarian’s (Philip’s) mariachi acoustic guitar and sing “Baby” by Justin Bieber today. Hehe. I love how different each park experience is from day to day. After scaring away some people with our lack of volleyball skills, Becca and I decided to just ‘go for it’ and talk to a group of about 8 school-age guys. As usual, it turned out to be a good thing…almost all of them knew a lot of English as well as Spanish, which I was thrilled about. We especially hit it off pretty well with a dude named Blag who acted super interested in coming to our get-togethers and/or movie nights.

We also met a girl at the park named Yana (spell check) who was consistently blowing cigarette smoke in our faces and kept busting out laughing excessively, as if trying to get attention of some sort. Her eyes were about as wild as her blue and yellow striped high-top converses. She latched onto our group, reciting Bulgarian raps all the way back to our hotel and getting herself labeled as sketchy. The only silence that came from her was when tears ran down her face during worship. We talked about love, loving our enemies, redemption through love, forgiving because of love, etc. It never ceases to amaze me how easily humans can connect through pain of past experiences and current struggles. I also like how God reveals Himself through the most unlikely people. As cliche as that sounds.. Thanks for all the prayers, guys. We see and feel them daily.

-Julia

PS- I’ve successfully had Bulgarian ice cream every day so far. Heck yes.

Yo pretty girl. I miss you already.

likewise, beautiful. i’m stoked about coming back for sure. :)

no food for a week

June 12, Sunday. Day 1. 
There are multiple reasons for the challenge i gave myself of not eating for a week, but my only reason for publicly blogging about it is to help hold myself accountable. 
I got home from church and immediately felt the urge to go to the pantry for something to snack on. Out of habit. Last time I tried this, I lasted for just over 30 hours. Pray for me, ha.
Currently, I’m feelin’ alive. Last week, I was at a Christian college in Tennessee, Freed Hardeman, for a five-day camp that is GO! Camp. Basically, it was a week of hilarious randomness and inspiration. The easiest way to know more about it is to see for yourself - http://www.fhu.edu/go/event/
In any case, various aspects of being there for a week caused me to decide to enroll and attend in the fall. I love how God waited till the last minute to let me feel at peace with a decision. He does that though. And sometimes we just have to pray our brains out, be still, and know that things will be okay. Pretty sure the One who created our innermost beings knows what we need. Let Him sweep you away.  

June 13, Monday. Day 2.
Still going strong.. the smell of food has been the worst. Pictures as well, ha.
I’ve had a consistent intake of water, but need more, according to the experts.
I’m aware that Americans eat constantly…but i don’t think i realized that it is straight up a past time.  

June 14, Tuesday. Day 3. 
So I learned something almost immediately as today began - don’t drink apple juice when your stomach has had nothing but water for the past two days. That stuff made me feel nauseous for a good 10-20 minutes straight. Not pleasant. 
I actually haven’t felt hungry all day. My tummy growls at designated meal times, but other than that…nothing.
A verse was randomly and appropriately sent to me recently - “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.” Matthew 5:6.
It’s helped me to keep my eye on the prize instead of solely on completion.
I’ve been thinking about those who consistently have to live with empty stomachs……. 

Pst, I like, love you and stuff. It's great seeing Jesus work through you. I love how you're such a hippie as well, heh. You are just lovely, all-around lovely.

P.S. I'M SUPER EXCITED ABOUT WAFFLE HOUSE TONIGHT!!!!! SLUUUUUUUURP!!!!!! :D

likewise to all that muh dear! it’s been such a blessing getting to chill with you this year.. you are going to do extraordinary things (not that you aren’t already) and it’s going to be awesome. like, Godly awesome. :D hehe

PS- SLURRRRRRRRRRRPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 

Under the Overpass.

Wow. So, this is my first post to tumblr - i’m still a noob, bare with me. 

Anyways.
I’m almost finished reading the book Under The Overpass by Mike Yankoski. It’s about how Mike’s life “went from upper-middle class plush to scum-of-the-earth repulsive overnight. By his own choice. From the United States capital to San Diego, Mike and his traveling companion, Sam, journeyed as homeless men for five months. Not for a project or even in response to a dare. He needed to know if his faith in God was real - if he could actually be the Christian he said he was apart from the comforts he’s always known.” 
It’s some intense stuff. Definitely a recommendation of mine. 

My friend has just recently read the book as well. So, naturally, we’re both in freak-out mode. Must. Just. Go. And. Not. Sit. On. My. Butt. 
We drove around the streets of downtown OKC tonight. Had about 10 different, yet similar, conversations. Gave away pb&js, chips, teddy grahams, and water bottles. Most of the people just wanted drugs. Not sure how i feel about this, but we are now known on the streets as “bud” distributers. hahaha. People tend to get their facts a little mixed up when they’re out of it. To say the least.  

I find it interesting, for lack of better word, that i can see Jesus so clearly in glazed-over and broken eyes. But in shiny church buildings………all i can see/hear is noise. noise. noise. noise. NOISE.

I miss Honduras. Bulgaria in less than a month. 

with hope,
Julia